help !!!

Posted by Unknown on 01.39 in

What is life ? 

What should I do when I lost someone important ? 

What should I do if I lost him because of my own fault ? 

What should I do if I really miss someone ? 

What should I do if I am beaten ?

 I do not know.

 I do not know a thing. 

I stupidly run from all of this feeling. 

By watching. 

And I have forgotten that I missed something more important.

 I almost threw my future just for longing the past.

 Stupid.

 Shame.

 I do not want to know.

 I am running away.

 I am running away from myself. 

I am running away from life itself. 

What should I do ?

 Tell me father. 

Tell me please.

 Please mother, give me strength.

 Because I loss myself.

 I am just a meat.

 A walking meat.

 No life, no passion.

 I lost.

And you know what is the meaning of beaten ?

Have been defeated.

 I have been defeated by myself.

 Not other people. 

But myself. My own self. 

That makes me more miserable. 

I am miserable, dad. 

What should I do ?